人言可畏

最近很衰，頭籤選到一個和自己tone不大合的老師；在醫院被冠上波波的家人受到學長關注；又聽到些令人耳根子癢癢癢的緋言流語，不論之前說溜嘴的人說了些什麼，有些話已經傳得讓我感到心裡很受傷，以前總愛到處亂講話的話，最近幾件事下來，終於能漸漸體會一些說話的藝術。

傍晚亂入李碩粲醫師的查房，聽到老師的bedside教學，有一掃陰霾的快感阿!!!

不是每件事都能稱心如意阿！唉～這就是人生...

I'm yours

Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment babay sing with me
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, not yours
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours!z

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment babay sing with me
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, not yours
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours!

Dilemma

最近心情實在很糟，在一個極尷尬的處境，這次的事件凝聚起台灣醫學生的士氣，台灣醫聯會裡不少我的好朋友們(包括即將上任的Leo會長)，都將挑起大樑對抗這股外來的勢力；從另一個面向來看，我也有家人正在那念書，看著台灣的好朋友們準備對這些外來人士開鍘，在我的心中充滿無限地惆悵。

我相信很多人對這些人士很不諒解，覺得他們只是群遜砲，一群膽挑戰指考的爛咖，沒錯，這點我也十分同意，也因為這一群人的出現，無非重重地賞了許多在高中努力不懈，甚至還要再重考，才能踏上醫學殿堂學子們一記無言的耳光。

現在的我完全沒有任何立場發言，在學校同學們可能覺得我是個支持波波的走狗，在家裡母親不希望我在這個議題上補任何一刀，現在的她沒寄望女兒回來能進大醫院裡接受最好的訓練，而只單純地期望她女兒畢業後能回台灣就業，對公眾議題一向不吝於發表看法的我，這次只能選擇噤聲。

我從來不敢批評這群外來人士的水準如何如何，因為我自己的水準也不是很高，但我可以自豪地說打從我踏入醫院以後，我對醫學的努力、憧憬與熱情絕對不落人後，我也很感謝許許多多教導過我的師長、學長姐們，要不是你們願意花時間傳授你們寶貴的知識給我，我要怎麼茁壯呢？

看著medstudent板上如雪花般波波的酸文，我會將這一字一句刻在我的心頭上，我也會時時警惕我自己，唯有兢兢業業地努力，才有歡喜結果的一天。

掙扎

最近這個事件真的讓我很難做人，這樣直接衝撞我的立場，我無法反抗但我真的很難受。

今晚這件事後你我就清清楚楚劃清界線，我也不會再你有任何牽連，你是你，我是我，不管過往如何，那都是以前的事。

From now on, I have no comments on that issue.

My limitation

最近心情極度低沉，感覺到自己實在十分地沒用，這種感覺就像自己在比跳高，我的目標就擺在眼前，但屢次嘗試都敗下陣來，而且摔得鼻青臉腫，好不是滋味。

我想要做得事情好多好多，我的理想也好大好大，我也試著努力地去追逐那些目標，但不斷地失敗幾乎快扼殺了我繼續努力下去的鬥志。

我知道我是個鬥士，但還沒達到目標前我早已遍體麟傷，要不是一路上許多前輩的提攜，不然我早已戰死在這片沙場上...